Pain

 I used to say "I'm happy"...I used to say "I'm strong"
A moment lost in dust is all I know right now.
Maybe I lost my hope or maybe I was wrong
The pain inside my soul is all I want to blow...
I wish I could create a fake feeling of love
My tears are all I have to bury all my sorrow
I don't know why my trust is shining like a dove
My heart is bleeding slowly because there's still an arrow.

Dor

As vrea sa pot sa-ti scriu ceva, dar pana-mi tremura cantand,
Hartia sufera in chin, cand sterg si tai cuvinte,
Gandul meu intrebator priveste-n larg razand
Suspina greu si suflul meu si dorul pentru tine...
Inima imi bate greu. In lipsa ta e-o piatra,
Ce cade imediat in gol si e pustie-n ceata.

Noaptea se contopeste-n zi,iar timpul se opreste
Si ziua se ascunde-n noapte cand eu privesc in gol...
In intuneric pustiit privirea-ti imi lipseste
Si adorm pe-o creanga de maslin furata de un idol
Ce-n agitate ganduri imi sfredeleste visul
Iar eu fara putere imi incetez si scrisul.

Winter grief

The window is not open,the sky is crying grey
I'm dreaming? Is it snowing?
..Must go outside and play...
My heart is deeply smiling,I don't know where I'm going,
Wish to reveal the child, that lies between the chains of life,
To throw away the solitude which blocks my will for freedom,
Snowflakes on my face,beneath my feet is ice,
To feel the winter's whiteness against my foolish wisdom.

I take a lonely snow walk, I try to freeze my thoughts
I see some playing children with some enchanted laughs
Beyond my icy memories, I miss that childish sunshine
I miss those snow balls fights, when all the world was mine...
When angels made of snow where our lovely guides,
When goofy snowmen where our lovers, in our spinning minds...
I miss my old and rusty sleigh which was my fancy car
And all of these are missed a lot, even my wishing star.

Gothic waltz

Rise upon the weakness,dust with darkness fall
In a world of dark ages,flooding twisted minds,
Humble be thy waltz,that waits for you to call
When the blood creeps and the fear finds...
A dancemaster in a midnight's clock.
Locked inside his gothic rhythm and his lifeless piece of heart...
Tingles the nature's blessing, racked by his deadlock,
Lies beneath his madness which so deeply weaves.

A lost soul was born,from his eternal grief
She found her way to live, in a gothic doll
The night was cold and frozen with leafs..
Haunting his thoughts when the faith is small...
She came toward him,with much respect she bowed,
He took her fragile hand and then the waltz began.
The corpses all around gathered in the crowd
His pangs,his pain disappeared, behind a sensuous gothic waltz...

Nu stiu ce caut...

Caut...nu stiu ce caut,Caut un cer noros
O vreme-ndepartata si-un zambet pretios.

Caut nu stiu ce caut. Un suflet linistit...
O voce ne-nfricata si-un sunet chinuit.
Nu stiu sa inteleg ce mi-ar fi de folos
Privesc in gol aievea si este de prisos.
Nu stiu ce-astept. Probabil...caut si nu gasesc
Ma uit ingandurata si nu stiu ce vorbesc...
De tine am nevoie, sau poate chiar nu am
Caci noaptea asta-i sumbra, stau si privesc la geam...
Si-as vrea sa inteleg de ce am iar momente?
Si cred ca totu-i bine...cand defapt nu e...
Sau poate nu-mi dau seama ca timpul sfasiat
Imi porunceste sobru sa las totul uitat.
In asta lume seaca, ma simt un singur om
Fiinta fara viata, desi simt ca iubesc...
O viata linistita e tot ce imi doresc.
Desi ma-nvart in haos, si ma scufund in stres
Dar in acelasi timp, chiar nu am de ales.
Sunt calma, vad in vid si nu reactionez
Zambesc, trec mai departe si chiar ma resemnez.
Caci am zile frumoase in care ma gandesc
Ca totul trece, vine, si nu pot sa visez.
Caci singura ma simt intr-un ocean de oameni
Nu esti cand am nevoie, nu e nimic si nimeni.
Am zile cand as vrea, sa pot sa te privesc
Am clipe cand visez sa fii ce imi doresc...
Poate gandesc prea mult, sau simt ca-mi este greu
Si-ncerc sa merg departe..sa triumfez mereu
Oricare-ar fi sentinta,orice ar fi sa fie
Las totu-n alb si negru, intr-o fotografie...

Caut..nu stiu ce caut.Caut sa ma-ntelegi
Sa ma ajuti, te rog... si gandu-mi sa dezlegi...